whiteflowers

i'm feeling... sad. blaah. am i important? I... i don't know how to put this down in words. i don't know if i even want to or not. why is life so complicated. sometimes, it sucks being small. ok so not sometimes, but most of the time. there's always this sense of inferiority. and like, it's not like i can help it. i've kinda gotten used to it, but it still sucks. like no matter how hard you try. you can't put on mass. you take the damn drink. and it doesn't really work. you work out. you grow a bit. but like, the strength is there, but not the mass. and it sucks. in this world where looks are paramount, it sucks. sigh. no one should see this. but i want them to. i want them to know how i feel. sigh, this blog is like, just an exhibition of my vulnerable side. my fears. my weaknesses. my inferiority complex. monsters from my past coming back to haunt me.

i wish i didn't know. that we could just go back to the start. when i was none-the-wiser. but at the same time, sigh i don't know.

ok bye. i'm just a depressed loser now. thanks. bye.